People, are meant to be people. We are entitled to have an alter ego. We have the right on how to express ourselves. But, most of the times, others tend to have a negative reaction when one became or behaves the way they don't expect.
I myself, always experience misjudgement. Other people who doesn't know me personally, tends to judge me by how they think I am and by how saw me that time. However other people's impression always makes me laugh. Not because they are funny, but because, it's always the same on every person.
Before one even familiarize themselves with me, they will always say that I ammasungit, masyadong seryoso, and other nasty comments. But, what they don't know is that I am actually makulit and sweet. I don't really enjoy being so quiet. But there are times when I need to have a time of my own when I need to be serious and quiet. But, everybody makes so much fuss when they see me like that, even my friends. They always tell me that when I am with them, I don't have any choice than to laugh. So, instead of worrying my problems too much, I just laugh with them. When I'm with them, I can't be serious, I can't even frown, but even if they are like that, I know that they are rooting for me secretly.
Some, no, let me revise that, most, hates the way I talk and act. That's why I always make rivals in class. Not rivals in love or rivals academically, but rivals in attitudes. Someone will always wage war againts me, because of my attitude. It's like a taboo when they saw somebody with an attitude that they cn't understand. But, I will always tell them that if they don't like me, I don't really care. They can love me peacefully or hate me vulgarly, I don't really care. They can make nasty rumors about them, but, as long as I know what is true, I don't really care.
I know that sometimes, even my friends sees me as a red flag raiser. We sometimes have confrontations and misunderstandings. But, I don't really care. Not because I know that we can patch things up easily, because it's not thateasy with how we are. Especially when it comes to my barkadas, because we are a bunch of weirdos, a bunch of idiots some may say. We always have a world of our own when we are together. Sometimes, we call ourselves autistic based on how we act. But because I know that they are also humans and even if we get along often, there will always be that moment that their fuses will set off and their emotions will burst. I can't stop that from happening. But, I also can't stop being myself.
Actually, I am always frank about the things that I see. I always express myself the way I want. And nobody as in NOBODY can stop me from doing so. Others may hate me because of that. But, I'd rather be hated than to be labeled plastic. I'd rather have many rivals or even foes than to make those people who sees me as I am to stay away from me just because they feel that I am being untrue to them. If its those who hates me, I wouldn't even think twice before making a remark as long as its true. But, if its those who loves me, I would hesitate to say nasty words or rather I would rephrase it several times in order to avoid hurting those people.
I may be nasty at times, I can be your very bad nightmare, your nastiest foe, or your decepticon in diguise if you don't know me or if you hate me. But, I can be very sweet, I may be your weirdest funniest dream, your great companion and your autobot that can defend you against the forces man had ever imagine if you come to love me or be my friend.
So, even if you love me or you hate me, the choice will always be yours. I won't care. You can love me just the way I am without making me change anything about myself, or you can hate me without even knowing who I am and how I act towards my friends and comrades.
So, as I said earlier, love me peacefully or hate me vulgarly, I won't care a bit. Good day. :D
Ti'll next time~ Ciao!
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